haiz,sianzation ah...1day1night nv slp liao...now very tired and weary,but also very sad...haiz,wish tat i could be knock down by a vehicle today and slp physically on this earth forever and to go heaven for a enjoyin paradise...i'm a FOOL of all fOOls,DUMMY of all DumBies...haiz,i'm juz a FOOL in everyone eyes,didn't know tat it was all my wisful thinkin...haiz,seems like i really bian ben like wat Serene said...can't do thing with a startin and endin,haiz,stupid stupid stupid,wake urself up bah,do you have a brain for yourself?dumb ass...haiz,later still gotta go cell group and service,hope i won't fall a slp...this world will juz never seems bright for me,is there really a space and purpose for me on this earth or there's juz death layin ahead of me or there's juz hurtz comin in i wanna be emotionally dead,i dun wanna shed a single tear,i dun wanna be alive...haiz 2emptiness in juz one day,cuz yesterday noon,Julia was sent off at the airport,at night sat on the bed thinkin and cryin of somethin after receving sms and chattin on the phone from 2 ppl...haiz,regerted 2 things tat i nv done,missed 2 things that was done onto me,wanted 2 things i never had,hated 2 thing tat i've done...haiz,guess i can't express much juz on this blog,words can be touchin but can't be expressive,but wat to do?
disappointment,
rejection,
loneliness,
abandon,
hurt,
tolerance,
endurance,
bitterness,
sufferings,
limitations had offered to the highest level,but all this waves and tsunamis kept comin in to force its limitation to be vent out soon on anybody who piss my ass off,if not the one who will be down will be me...i only wan to go heaven and not be off a good person with good limitation,if anyone of you wish to hurt me piss me kill me or do anything onto me,juz come,but pls,make sure one thing,take it as a request,make sure wat you do will cause me to DIE in a result...thank you,or you'll regret...nth much to say le,hope tat later people there with no brains dun piss me off with their brainless words,either they suffer or i go home...that's all...