Haiz,it's been a while since the last time i blog...hmm,basically,East Coast got event,Mun Yee's Birthday and New Year Countdown...haiz,think of ppl askin me wat resolution i have and wat expects i have...haiz,last sat went svc,felt so much love from God and so challenge to be the head and not the tail...but after countdown tat day,i felt living so aimless in life,dunno wat to do...really felt like i am living lika wind,filled in every corner for ppl to breathe,whereas i am filled in ppl lives to challenge them to move on every time they fall...to cry with tem,tear with them,share the joy with them,laugh with them and so much more...but still a wind has no purpose,it's only have a function to let ppl live...juz like me,i'm juz helpin others,being a friend,being a advicer,listener,encourager...till the end,i still have no goal in life,no point i see i should live on...sometime really felt tat if God would actually allowed me as a young boy to die with this illness known as 'BRUGADA'(basically a illness which cause death while slping,juz tat it is due to stress)...my life is a total lost,a total failure,a total messed up...Some of you,sees me as a person of bright and cheerful,but when you see my blog,you were shock...now is some things which you can see for yourself why i'm so different...i find,totally no one,NO ONE,to count on,to talk with...i sacrifice my personality,for the sake of other lives,for being their walkin stick when they fall...and sacrifice my heart and mind for someone,and now,i lost my personality and myself...So,as you can see here is mainly all the answer of those who had questioned me...friends like Julia and Bernard,i know i've made a pact of sharing thoughts and trouble,but really sorry that i always break it...cuz something,juz something,really meant to be kept to remind me of wat i dun wan to get into again...so now,be4 ending off,i hope this wat i can help some of ya who wanted me to update and also some of ya who wanted to know wat happen...I thanks this many close friends for ya concern on different things....For my leg-Cindy,Shi Hui,Mun yee,Chee Seng,Wei Mun and Chen Bing(thanks for being my friend),Other catergary-Julia,Bernard,Jason.Tiong,Jason.Ang,Terry,now very rush,my mind went blank,those of you who know you did sow in my life,forgive me for poor memory and blackout,but i thank you here...also Mun yee,thanks for chattin with me for 4hrs tat night and tiong,thanks for always calling me and checkin out my life,Julia,thanks for always tryin to find out my prob...last msg,one day,if anybody of you felt tat how come this person nv sms me for so long,pls forget him...cuz he does not wanna be remembered...