Haiz,juz now went service quite a strong message...Then remembered that Alvin said i 'm a Christian who doesn't behaved like one...Felt quite true and right about wat he said...Such a Christian who is a failure...hmm,now must focus on 2 thing,CONCENTRADE ON MY 'N' LEVEL,FOCUS ON GOD...i need a resolution QUICK!!!as long as i dun have a resolution,i'm still living in a aimless life...no goal no target...Haiz,GREAT IS REALLY OUR AND MY GOD...I SAW MIRACLES ALONG MY LIFE,BLESSINGS,HARDSHIPS and many many more...very sianz liaoz...nth to say le...off to die...

Finally can can start a blog without wrotong a 'haiz' in front...This 3 days of school re-open still can say average...Really need thank God for everything...1st day in school quite normal,cuz before recess got teacher in class but after tat we had none...Then second day,they invited a person who was a poor scorer in a young age...Then actually quite sleepy de,Benjamin thay talk talk talk around me then keep waking up suddenly,but then when the trainer came i was still sleepy...but when he started sharing and talking about his school life,I started telling myself to listen...And then he taught us skills in an interview...I've learnt to know to talk more or less in an interview dependin one the job requirement...Also,when a person first sees you,he will remember or would like to see this person again is depended by how he talks and his appreance...100%->7% talking,93% appreance...Then until 12:00pm the speaker went off,then we had bonding camp...I kept crapping with Alvin and Rui xin that the camp was hug hug slp slp camp,that's why called bonding camp...When in bonding the organization was all the last year student who just graduated and now in holiday...But what they had for us to play is very stupid and dumb...It's like a Dumb creating games and mature people to play...No brains man,then dulan in the game i keep guai lan with the person in charge of our group...Then he cannot win me go find another person take over...In the end,during break still very angry then went home...Then yesterday is the best honeymoon before teacher start to teach next monday,cuz we went to New Park Hotel and learnt dining equittie...Finally felt some respect from school,cuz sec 2 and 3 teacher always neglect us...Somethings i learnt over the day are like-analyze until you paralyze,phD-permenant head damage...Finally i am inspired to be like somebody,which is to be a speaker...Professional getta earn 8k-12k per session(6hrs)...Like that work 1day no need work for that month le...so good...1 thing I notice,our DM so fake and childish,first act so warm for the whole...then 2nd day start scolding here and there...so fake lor...then still created a hi-5 things...so desprate for hi-5 why not de watch kids central for hi-5 everyday just to content his childsih side of his...haiz,currently still have no resolution for this year,such a failure...To be a people magnet,i can be like one...Just like yesterday,3 different side of people asked me to join them for their activity...but i didn't went...haiz,now needa go meet Cindy and Mun yee for Hui's birthday celebration...

Haiz,it's been a while since the last time i blog...hmm,basically,East Coast got event,Mun Yee's Birthday and New Year Countdown...haiz,think of ppl askin me wat resolution i have and wat expects i have...haiz,last sat went svc,felt so much love from God and so challenge to be the head and not the tail...but after countdown tat day,i felt living so aimless in life,dunno wat to do...really felt like i am living lika wind,filled in every corner for ppl to breathe,whereas i am filled in ppl lives to challenge them to move on every time they fall...to cry with tem,tear with them,share the joy with them,laugh with them and so much more...but still a wind has no purpose,it's only have a function to let ppl live...juz like me,i'm juz helpin others,being a friend,being a advicer,listener,encourager...till the end,i still have no goal in life,no point i see i should live on...sometime really felt tat if God would actually allowed me as a young boy to die with this illness known as 'BRUGADA'(basically a illness which cause death while slping,juz tat it is due to stress)...my life is a total lost,a total failure,a total messed up...Some of you,sees me as a person of bright and cheerful,but when you see my blog,you were shock...now is some things which you can see for yourself why i'm so different...i find,totally no one,NO ONE,to count on,to talk with...i sacrifice my personality,for the sake of other lives,for being their walkin stick when they fall...and sacrifice my heart and mind for someone,and now,i lost my personality and myself...So,as you can see here is mainly all the answer of those who had questioned me...friends like Julia and Bernard,i know i've made a pact of sharing thoughts and trouble,but really sorry that i always break it...cuz something,juz something,really meant to be kept to remind me of wat i dun wan to get into again...so now,be4 ending off,i hope this wat i can help some of ya who wanted me to update and also some of ya who wanted to know wat happen...I thanks this many close friends for ya concern on different things....For my leg-Cindy,Shi Hui,Mun yee,Chee Seng,Wei Mun and Chen Bing(thanks for being my friend),Other catergary-Julia,Bernard,Jason.Tiong,Jason.Ang,Terry,now very rush,my mind went blank,those of you who know you did sow in my life,forgive me for poor memory and blackout,but i thank you here...also Mun yee,thanks for chattin with me for 4hrs tat night and tiong,thanks for always calling me and checkin out my life,Julia,thanks for always tryin to find out my prob...last msg,one day,if anybody of you felt tat how come this person nv sms me for so long,pls forget him...cuz he does not wanna be remembered...