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2007-06-11T12:50:00.000+08:00

Back again,guess the storm in the spiritually journey has dispersed...the physical friendship and brotherhood is restored after being bold to apologize...thanks for your concren Jason,Julia and MiaoMiao....haiz,guess now i clear of my mind that i'm Single again,kinda sad everytime when it actually have it back to my thought out of my sudden...it reminds me tat i broke a child of God's Heart...a foot rashness gets me into contineous regretness of gettin attached and breakin her heart...guess now,i'm tired and i'm so sad...but thanks always for those who shown huge concren for me during times of this like Jason,Angeline,Julia and Eric...thought one i dun have a future vision,but my current vision is really to get myself devoted to God andd serve in ministry or help out...For
I'm willing to forsake everything and pick up my daily CROSS on my back,and follow HIM till the end...1 word and I'll Follow...haiz,it might be a tougher route at the front,but to see revival in my campus,i've gotta try get ppl save and let God fill my heart with songs when school reopen,i know i'll get prosecution and being lonely...but it doesn't matters,as long as i have my Lord and my Spiritually family which is my CG and Church...signin off,Willie...

2007-06-04T08:57:00.000+08:00

hmmm,seems to be like a long time since i last post....but it doesn't really matters...cuz it's so little ppl who come here...finally EMERGE is over,but i missed it so much,every single session was so much of God's presence,joy,fun,entertainment,close encounter,impartation,revealation,renewing strength,soaring like eaglaes,run but not weary,walk but not faint...it's so good the it could stay on forever...and POS,we got 2nd,thanks to everybody's effort we improve very much,and next year,we'll acheive the championship...POS has made me know lots of new friends from different areas,but also some which is jus around school area...hope next year,everyone in POS will come back for a revival...and having Ben&Jerry's ice cream together like jus yesterday,and it's going to come again around the corner...and then,one more thing is that,i'm single again...but i broke a girl's heart...haiz,that's all i have to say...tooo much complains,God won't like it,for HE will defend me as i trust and lean onto HIM...

2007-03-21T15:57:00.000+08:00

Phew,it's a long time since i blog...Guess i've lost my interest in blogging bahz...can't think of much to post currently...only can say i can still cope with my RQ in school...but other than tat,i need to to get my RQ to be strong with people everywhere...then my school work,think my grades are sliding down constantly bah...guess i tired both physically can spiritually...can't get to manage my time while...end up gettin less slp each day,and got myself slping for long in class...everyday i'm slpin more in class than the day before...juz hope all my friends around are still doing fine...signing off now...

2007-02-20T22:05:00.000+08:00

haiz,16 feb so sad...in school first and 2nd lesson,i solo run for p.e then i was first...cuz mainly all nv run...but i manage to win Sheng poh...but sway sway 3rd period was poa,then nearly recess that time,police and mr.lao come our class...then tat time Wan hoe and me sure know they come for Jia Jun...then got Joelle and Alex in class very slack,cuz they know they no wrong...but Alex kuai lan with the policemen,then kanna kan...haiz...then whole day from recess till after school,those pai kia and me all so worried and sad...then after school see Alex and Joelle kanna caught also...haiz...then more sianz and sad liaoz...then Gerald,Miao hua and me we go eat lunch,at there i called Hazwan...found out all the ph and 1o8 ppl all kanna rolex and bring to station...sianz ah...then i tell the 2 of them,nobody there i worried except for 2,it were Jason.Tiong and Jia jun only...then very sianz la...so me and Gerald went play pool at arenna,cuz at night going to studying with Jia En,Miao Hua and Hui Jing,then play half-way,Tiong's mom called me...wah,that time dunno how to answer to his mom...then half try to sheild and cover up,half jus reluntantly say wat happen by bit...after that called,Gerald say i play pool very siaoz...cuz i hit the ball ,the ball that get the force keep on fly out...haiz,then Gerald say i very stress up...then this thing made a breakthrough in my life,cuz i was very worried abt the 2 of them,i kept praying in train in bus duing my walk alone...everywhere where i was alone,i kept praying...sat very sianz ah...then half day watch tv the night all slp...haiz the chu yi nv bai nian,then sianz sianz until evening,Gerald called and jio me go play pool,then play at entertainment...then yesterday chu er,go my ah yi's house to have dinner,evening travel to Gerald's house with Miao Hua and Hui Jing to bai nian,then we go play pool,after awhile,the 2 girls need go home,so we sent them home liaoz,Gerald still wanted to go play...so we took cab back to entertainment to play until they closed...then today,go ah ma's house,my lao pa kuai lan me,say i come out nv behave...then keep complaining,then i very dulan...then i go meet Tiong and Jun for dinner...then the 2 of them like bo tai ji like tat,keep on crap and crap...then very funny,laugh all the way...after they finish,they accompany me go meet Miao Hua and Hui Jing to study...so crappy there...then accompany Tiong back home,then can see he very worried abt his parents...the best i can do for him is to see wat request he has...then,all th best to him for his case...fly off...

2007-02-11T18:57:00.001+08:00

Yoz,today is a very very good day...morning auto wake up as i actually forgot to set alarm...last night watch Jacki Chan show until fell asleep during the show...but nvm,then startin very sway...this few days,see funeral,then people 'gao lou pao wu' around Gerald's house area(thank God for tat) cuz if i nv follow Gerald path,i sure kanna hit by the hard and heavy object being threw out of the window...and the last thingis on yesterday,sat,my house block opposite got on fire...then these few thing made me realised i actually quite bless...if this things were to happen in and on my family,sure die liaoz...my house already so poor,if got funeral already need money liaoz,then object hit me i fly to heaven,then if got fire at my house,i'll went broke...

Then today be4 going out,suddenly stomache then from punctual to late,then Bernard also no money in his ez-link card value,then Julia also will be late...all the thing jus came crashing...then the worst is that i made Tiong wait,cuz normally i'm the one who's late,but this time wrong,is on the contrary...so quite rushing and tryin to rush...then after i stomache got headache...felt like the devil's in me is tryin to test my faith on going to cell-group,as yesterday when i was walkin to the mrt station for the train...a deep stiring feeling and the heat was like going to against on my venture...so quite a challenge for me,but still,nothing can stop me with God's strength as my courage...

So,during cg,quite a good time today,it was like a cell-group reunion or a family reunion...then Tiong,finally came to our cell,but for make-up...still quite happy to see so many people all coming together as one juz for God...then after cell-group actually got prayer meeting at expo...But i didn't,as i promised Tiong that i'll accompany him today...So,Da niu and Eric was quite dissappointed with...But sometimes,it's nicer to rest and relax on the Sabath with friends,chit-chatting,shopping,relax and enjoy...juz like wat the Church has always been saying,even God need a rest for Himself after a long work...But it's alright,it didn't affect me much...So me and Tiong went having our breadfast when it's already 01:00pm...Sounds qutie early for a breadfast huh?lolx...then after tat,we went shopping at bugis street,then with him,he's like my image consultant as a professional wor...then he chose for me some type of long sleeve shirt that suits me...but i kept complaining due to my fussyness...but in the end,i bought a brownish army-top long sleeve shirt...I felt like Tiong gave me a extreme make-over style for my top appearance...then he show me how to cover-up my weakness on my skinny size by making people to focus more on detail which is on the clothes...then he kept saying this idoms,"Bi Duan Yang Chang"...haiz,so old,keep repeatin the same thing...oh ya,btw,the shop is "Re Coil",so go and have a look in your free time and see wheather tiong is a Professional like i claim...if you dun think he is,then you must give me comment which prove my judgement is wrong,only then,dun complain he's not professional...but he quite a amazing person by proving people wrong,if you get a chance to see his body lining and shape plus fitness,dun open ur mouth too big and dun let ur eyes pop out...but thanks to his proving,i'm challenge again to continue something i've stopped since i've started wokring...
So,tml onwards,i must gym...and prepare to win and beat some BASTARDs plus ingrateful people who know for themselves the best...if i'm the one who let you down,prove me wrong...you bastards were the one who gave me cold shoulder first...and repaeat the same things you do in dark and think that i'm a stupid fool who dun know a single thing...But nvm,still one thing you remind me of,you are still telling me you lack of friends...pls,dun make me laugh...and some bastards,you are dumber than i am,being use after one another time being use by them and ps by them in the dark of alot of thing which you still didn't know until now...haiz,nvm,dun say too much on you all,the more i write the more you'll comment...only one advice for you BASTARDs,"You Reap What You Sow",wheather you think i'm preaching or not...the sooner your harvest,the better it is...but the later your harvest is,but be prepare in your future...for it'll come in a bigger reapin of what you've done now...you will nv know which day you'll be betrayed,and that day,you might be standin in glorious fame and being smash straight down like a lonely beggar...and that day,you'll be worst then my situation now...

nvm,since it's a happy day,i'll stop my cursing and swearing,as somebody beside who is nagging at me(TIONG)!!!,back to today,went walking inside topman,then saw a 4T1 guy from our school...then walk into SEIYU and walking pass smeone and someone's Stead from our class...Nvm,since i promise that i can't reveal,so i dun say le...then went Jp,then this time is for Tiong,cuz he wan buy a black patns that he had eyed on...So i went in and eyed on 3 items...Must save $$$ le...hmm...now juz needa continue working hard for my 'N' and 'O' levels as Jia En,Hui Jing,Miao Hua and me,the 4 of us,realised the seriousness like the Graduates did...So EeeNNNddd here le...

2007-01-07T16:36:00.000+08:00

Haiz,juz now went service quite a strong message...Then remembered that Alvin said i 'm a Christian who doesn't behaved like one...Felt quite true and right about wat he said...Such a Christian who is a failure...hmm,now must focus on 2 thing,CONCENTRADE ON MY 'N' LEVEL,FOCUS ON GOD...i need a resolution QUICK!!!as long as i dun have a resolution,i'm still living in a aimless life...no goal no target...Haiz,GREAT IS REALLY OUR AND MY GOD...I SAW MIRACLES ALONG MY LIFE,BLESSINGS,HARDSHIPS and many many more...very sianz liaoz...nth to say le...off to die...

2007-01-06T10:49:00.000+08:00

Finally can can start a blog without wrotong a 'haiz' in front...This 3 days of school re-open still can say average...Really need thank God for everything...1st day in school quite normal,cuz before recess got teacher in class but after tat we had none...Then second day,they invited a person who was a poor scorer in a young age...Then actually quite sleepy de,Benjamin thay talk talk talk around me then keep waking up suddenly,but then when the trainer came i was still sleepy...but when he started sharing and talking about his school life,I started telling myself to listen...And then he taught us skills in an interview...I've learnt to know to talk more or less in an interview dependin one the job requirement...Also,when a person first sees you,he will remember or would like to see this person again is depended by how he talks and his appreance...100%->7% talking,93% appreance...Then until 12:00pm the speaker went off,then we had bonding camp...I kept crapping with Alvin and Rui xin that the camp was hug hug slp slp camp,that's why called bonding camp...When in bonding the organization was all the last year student who just graduated and now in holiday...But what they had for us to play is very stupid and dumb...It's like a Dumb creating games and mature people to play...No brains man,then dulan in the game i keep guai lan with the person in charge of our group...Then he cannot win me go find another person take over...In the end,during break still very angry then went home...Then yesterday is the best honeymoon before teacher start to teach next monday,cuz we went to New Park Hotel and learnt dining equittie...Finally felt some respect from school,cuz sec 2 and 3 teacher always neglect us...Somethings i learnt over the day are like-analyze until you paralyze,phD-permenant head damage...Finally i am inspired to be like somebody,which is to be a speaker...Professional getta earn 8k-12k per session(6hrs)...Like that work 1day no need work for that month le...so good...1 thing I notice,our DM so fake and childish,first act so warm for the whole...then 2nd day start scolding here and there...so fake lor...then still created a hi-5 things...so desprate for hi-5 why not de watch kids central for hi-5 everyday just to content his childsih side of his...haiz,currently still have no resolution for this year,such a failure...To be a people magnet,i can be like one...Just like yesterday,3 different side of people asked me to join them for their activity...but i didn't went...haiz,now needa go meet Cindy and Mun yee for Hui's birthday celebration...

2007-01-02T19:25:00.002+08:00

Haiz,it's been a while since the last time i blog...hmm,basically,East Coast got event,Mun Yee's Birthday and New Year Countdown...haiz,think of ppl askin me wat resolution i have and wat expects i have...haiz,last sat went svc,felt so much love from God and so challenge to be the head and not the tail...but after countdown tat day,i felt living so aimless in life,dunno wat to do...really felt like i am living lika wind,filled in every corner for ppl to breathe,whereas i am filled in ppl lives to challenge them to move on every time they fall...to cry with tem,tear with them,share the joy with them,laugh with them and so much more...but still a wind has no purpose,it's only have a function to let ppl live...juz like me,i'm juz helpin others,being a friend,being a advicer,listener,encourager...till the end,i still have no goal in life,no point i see i should live on...sometime really felt tat if God would actually allowed me as a young boy to die with this illness known as 'BRUGADA'(basically a illness which cause death while slping,juz tat it is due to stress)...my life is a total lost,a total failure,a total messed up...Some of you,sees me as a person of bright and cheerful,but when you see my blog,you were shock...now is some things which you can see for yourself why i'm so different...i find,totally no one,NO ONE,to count on,to talk with...i sacrifice my personality,for the sake of other lives,for being their walkin stick when they fall...and sacrifice my heart and mind for someone,and now,i lost my personality and myself...So,as you can see here is mainly all the answer of those who had questioned me...friends like Julia and Bernard,i know i've made a pact of sharing thoughts and trouble,but really sorry that i always break it...cuz something,juz something,really meant to be kept to remind me of wat i dun wan to get into again...so now,be4 ending off,i hope this wat i can help some of ya who wanted me to update and also some of ya who wanted to know wat happen...I thanks this many close friends for ya concern on different things....For my leg-Cindy,Shi Hui,Mun yee,Chee Seng,Wei Mun and Chen Bing(thanks for being my friend),Other catergary-Julia,Bernard,Jason.Tiong,Jason.Ang,Terry,now very rush,my mind went blank,those of you who know you did sow in my life,forgive me for poor memory and blackout,but i thank you here...also Mun yee,thanks for chattin with me for 4hrs tat night and tiong,thanks for always calling me and checkin out my life,Julia,thanks for always tryin to find out my prob...last msg,one day,if anybody of you felt tat how come this person nv sms me for so long,pls forget him...cuz he does not wanna be remembered...

2006-11-27T13:54:00.000+08:00

Haiz,yesterday ah yesterday ah...Wat a long story to tell...hmm,went meetin Popiah then go jp together and meet up Terry,Serene,Emily...Then in train need try talk to one side with the boys one side with the girls then half-way in the train still kanna suan by Serene and Emily...Say i 'ren ge fen lie zheng'...Then reach there they kept complaining like a wasted trip cuz actually they could work 3 jobs today...So felt so guilty and also i ps them in the game and in the night when going home...FastForward bah,cuz i dun really wanna complain or judge in the game of how they behave,Hmm,i know the 2 of them dun really enjoy there,but thanks for really attending and not ps even you didn't enjoy it and sorry for tat i can't make thing go fun for the 2 of you...then in the end of the game,W369 nv won,then actually very dulan liao la...When finish awardin prize,they wan take photo,then didn't realize Jason.Ang was on my left and Pei Wen on my right...then Jason saw my expression like buai song like tat then try askin me...but i kept say nth la...But i know Terry and me sure du lan one...Then Jeremy try askin,Wei yi,Gabriel,Benjamin all te same,but some others thought was that we lost and i felt dulan,actually not lor...Since ppl wan think like tat,let it be and tat would make me a sore lose...But i dun give a damn to defend myself...So end up not joining them for dinner,then reach home never even bother bathe as i was soaked in the sea water...then at night 12plus Tiong called me and have a 49mins chat and glad to hear tat he was happy for that day...Glad he knows how to engcourage me and appreaciate me...Haiz,question,How is it like when you're down and being push around from finding a place,someone went lying to you or does not even lend his helping hands...Is this how a Christian should be like when playing game?Is that how our team treated every single group?-When will righteous win with glory and liars can't even lose with their dignity....? When will people learn to aprreaciate me and understand me,rather than you always a better of me without even a thank-you...?From now on,I'm not gonna be a mr.nice.guy,who ever piss on my ass shall get their butt kick by me...Wat for let myself suffer when evenyone gets to piss my ass,and I can't be myself and stay happy...Since my help was never aprreiciated,nor shall I appreaciate anybody...Let my lonely soul to be like I ever was,I shall stand aside and watch to fall and cry,I will not help but laugh at your own cause on your actions...I shall be so ready to condemn you like never before for every single mistake you made,like wat you did to me...

2006-11-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

haiz,today thing so messy and fan...startin wan go off to bus stop to go westmall area to redeem my pay...but then Bernard an Terry kept callin me and tell me to hurry...then i know i also late le...some more cuz Chen bing to be late also,cuz he joinin us to...then lucky i haven go westmall,cuz actually i wan call Pei Wen and ask her some cheque question,in the end too early for her i guess,so nv call...but lucky Chen bing's father come back home...then he ask the father,then when i saw his father dunno why so wat like tat,then i actualli forgot to greet him...haiz,end up need go home to take bank book,then go take book liao reach the bank,go 1 counter down there the person so friendly to ask me wat i wan do,then told him everything liao he say cannot get money todae,he only maybe tml 2pm can get nia...then totally spoil the trip liao lor...no money how to shop...then Chen Bing say lend me first lor,so i say ok,then walk to mrt station,thne the both of us wan top-up ezlink card,suddenly i open wallet then rmb my card not with me,but with my bro...haiz,then need U-turn back again...take liaoz then Bernard and Terry still kept callin,then i like wan peng qui liao lor...this and tat,either nv bring or cannot get...so messy for today lor,then walk from 1 place to the other place for alot of times lor...qi si ren ah...then when reach jp liao hor,the 2 of them went hidin a board behind and when i call them they dun wan pick up...so lame lor,they go shout my name from my back and went hidin,then when turn my back they not there but i saw the legs within the board within seconds...hehe...then saw me comin towards them then they come out and stop playin...dot dot dot...haiz,when go up mrt,they say wait for the next train then i say ok lor,so i wait at the end of the station and look at the study corner direction...then start thoughts in my mind,then Chen Bing come,then talk for a few speech,i told him this:'Got fate sure can see her de'...then within moment,really saw her with Mun Yee and 2 guys behind walkin along the 'da long gou'...whether is tyco or not,i felt that maybe is fate lor...but still see they walk until so happy like tat,i thought to not really say anything,then soon when they cross road cannot see liaoz the mrt straight come into my sight...dunno why today so messy and complicated,haiz,then in train i keep on have teary eye and keep on fa dai,then i notice Terry and Bernard tryin to communicate,if i not wrong they wan try to make happy with lame joke...but then really can't hold myself up...so until when we reachin bugis,i told myself this,put others perpective before takin mine,so once i walk out of the train,i try talkin to force myself to be happy and show them i'm sort of alright...haiz,but actually no mood to shop liaoz,at first at jp in train i told them go play bball straight,so can go home faster...thene when go bugis street that time,i totally bu xinag mai liao lor,but actually got de,then Terry spent $40 on 2 shirts then Nard and Bing like blur blur like tat lor...then i bring them walk around...haiz,in the end,brought 1 long black pants without even tryin...now dunno whether to rejoice or to be sad...haiz,fa dai fa dai,ah dai ah dai,haiz...feel like sme sort of kong xu in my heart...some more now seeing Cheng Bing and his mom zai dou zhui...such a heart warmin family,but he muz know how to appreciate his mother's care...

2006-11-16T11:08:00.000+08:00

haiz,tiring ah today...nv slp whole night,then today somemor my bro b'dae then dunno wanna be a good person or bad person leh...buy him present you tai hao,then dun buy you tai bad...haiz,have bro is so mai fan lor,wish can me du seng zi lor...haiz,then later need go bugis street to shop for clothes and pants,after tat still needa play bball at Jurong west Sec outside de bball court,100% gurantee plus chop i go home sure knock at any of the corner in the house also can de lor...but when wake up sure dunno how i will end up in another place or corner...haiz,2 days liaoz haven't go redeem my pay from the cheque...then later still needa go home and go take bank book sia...ma fan ma fan ma fan...sianz ah,later sure tired like siao liaoz...endin here...byebye...haiz,moment ago juz went to Bernard's blog and saw the last update which remind me of something which make me so dulan...fucking benjamin and hadzhiq better stop talkin nonesense hor,dun anyhow say Bernard is Jenna and me de baby hor,mother fucker,2 of you so prevertic and so annoyin to others already liao...wan say me better go keep yourself fit and come pit against me...na bei,chee bye...

2006-11-15T16:40:00.000+08:00

haiz,so sad and xin ku yesterday...go get pay and shoppin,but meet arnd 12:40,but with Serene,they will nv be able to be punctual...then i wait for arnd 1hr plus like tat...so tiring,but also kinda of sad/good to refresh some memories from there when sittin at the stairs at jp...then when they late liaoz,Serene still wan tua me say is meet at bugis,then wan pretend i late not she late...but i keep say dun bluff lor,in the end she say she late...haha...but everytime we take train go to a place,all always sianz sianz one sia...then,since they dead dead i follow dead dead like sleepy wood...then until reach a location then everybody start gettin high and talkative...but everytime they talkative,i kanna insult for sure...then i very wat de lor...nvm,if they happy can liaoz...wat for 1 person spoil 3 person mood,then also,with Serene there,my mouth sure cannot win her one...cuz my mouth use to counsel ppl not shoot ppl one,but hers is use to shoot ppl one...nvm,then go vivo shop first before get pay,cuz the boss la,like very poor like tat,at night then can get pay from her...then they still give attitude,like kanna sai lor,but their ambition quite zai sia,cuz 5 youngster join together form a company to become a boss...youngster leh...zai lor...but still attitude kanna lan lor...then still,go vivo,then dunno decide eat wat,end up go 'the chicken shop' then we all see the menu so kong bu...then we waste our money on alot of dishes...cuz cannot change the food on the set meal,end up this and that we all nv eat...that we only eat chicken and beancurd...haiz,waste tua gay,some sort of popiah veggie,and a mango salad...the mango salad bluff ppl one lor...majiam shit lor...then Emily tu tu one,Serene dunno say wat,Emily pop back alittle and then make her cup of root beer spilt on her...stupid lor..reaction so big sia...then after that we went 'Candy Empire',then then 3 of them like see until gold...then Serene so clever lor,go ask me for $4 cuz last time when she come 'Emerge' i promise her a ice-cream,then in the end nv,but she still so mindful lor,like tat also rmb until now,almost 6mths liaoz loh...but nvm la,then Emily keep on wan di siaoz me then i have smart way to pay back her...tat is to make her hair stand like siaoz,then she keep run to Zhi lei and Serene lor,then Serene also so biased...go spank my back...wah,after tat,disaster starts to strike,they go in lady shop then i follow then go ESpirit then go try this try tat,then i end up takin almost all their bags,purse and harvest...win liaoz lor,like i'm a male maid sia,haiz,everytime kanna bully...then walk walk walk,last min Emily need withdraw money from bank then Serene dun wan to leave all the shops,then we gotta like drag her pull her tell her to go off...then we went searchin for POSB bank...haiz,then Serene wan use her card to deposit money,but she also quite sway...be4 her,the person use until then thing cannot deposit...then she alittle bit dulan,cuz she dun wan spend the money away,but in the end,also spent it away in the nite time...haiz,fast forward bah...when we go bugis,we go to the 'ICON' and then wait the boss come,actually say evening one,then end up give excuse say sai che...lame excuse,watch tv also know...haiz,then lucky tat time when i wan to take pay Serene was distracted by Zi Yang,cuz she wan beat him back,lucky she was distracted,or else she wan take my pay away,heng ah...wah,but Serene also a sad case la,the Zi Yang fa hou,then chia her back of her neck then she so pain lor...haiz,ke lian cong...but still i more ke lian...lol...then the zeng Ying so attitude lor,go and scold the 2 of them...but they nv notice she tiao Serene lor,but i did...so attitude lor...nvm,then we went off to bugis street,wah,there i suffer again,but also have some gain although i was so broke until i can't afford a single thing cuz the pay is cheque...but still,while sufferin there, i found so pants that i feel like tryin out or juz buy it,but its beyond my means...wah,after sufferin for so long ah,Serene brought us to 1 jean shop for ladies where she knew the owner,at there finally we sit there and rest and talk and they try out short pants and jeans...hmmm,not quite alot of fun things at the back...fastforwad again bah...then go home went back restin before doin anythin,then Cheese go and sms me to call him,so i did after a period of time,cuz i didn't notice he smsed me...didn't know he was gonna give me a job...then i sms the person,the person reply until like wat sia,reply 'oic' how i reply back the person,toopi lor...haiz,then went conferencng Nard and popiah to see how they were doing that day,then after callin,went using the dye Emily gave me to dye my hair in midnight 1plus-2plus...then at first see my hair coulour obvious,cuz late at night,so when got light very easy to spot colour,but today morning went looking at my hair like quite dull unless go look carefully then got...sianz lor,dunno good or bad leh,then Chen bing at first say cannot see,cuz juz now rainin sky grey grey...now in his hse dark dark then light shine in and he say a little bit obvious...haiz,nvm,quite a normal day bah for today...but 1 not so good and not so bad thing happen,then job person called me,then wan this qualification wan that qualification,but he like wan me do leh,cuz when i say see first he say why need see first...then pay is higher,location is farest...1 end of singapore to the other end of singapore sia...sad to say...T.T...then also,when the person say kim mo then i blur blur say yes,then he say i dun take in kim mo one,cuz i nv listen properly,also not my fault cuz he talk like Jay like tat,blur blur one,Zhi lei also know how he talk cuz she got call the person also...hmmm,seems like a new challenge gonna arise...haiz,day after day,i know you're talkin to me,your words speak louder than this world,and when i pray,your spirit overwhelms me,reveal the things that i muz know,show me how to live,teach me how pray,let all i think and say pls you Lord,show how to live,teach me in your ways,so i can walk with you all my days...hmm,dunno why suddenly felt to write this lyrics from church songs...nvm,dun care wats the reason is...but still suddenly felt God is good,cuz me and the 3 of them felt like quitin then like no other job we can find...at first have de,sum more 12 vacancy,in the end the person in charge de boss say dun accept ppl liaoz...haiz,then now God gave us a waiter/waiteress job...but location and pay and dressin look like a challenge to us...maybe is when i pray and when we hope for a job,we nv consider wat we really wan,juz kept hopin for a change in job and that all...nvm,it's alright...juz like wat Zhi lei said,every job got its own challenge...hmmm,gotta go off be4 popiah's mom get back,cuz she not feelin well and i dun like to go ppl house with parent as usual...so tat's it for today and yesterday...byebye,take cares friends...z -.-" z.../\ . /\...T.T.../\ . /\...z -.-" z...

2006-11-13T12:39:00.000+08:00

haiz,today such a good day but also a raining day...Bernard ah Barnard...guess he haven't counsel ppl with so much as i does with others ppl prob and my own prob...hmm,nvm,can't blame him...this gonna be learn my struggles and trying...sianz ah,finally todae slp 10hrs ah,but still feel very tired...i wan to dye my hair,Emily better lend dye,or else become i die...sianz lor,get pay still need to plan buy this and tat,in the end also like nv earn...wah,then now in Chen bing's house,then he and his bro so good lor,treat me makan pizza,wah,my stomach,shoik ah...but very pai sei leh...nvm,they both very good...

2006-11-13T11:32:00.000+08:00

haiz...kanna bully like hell yesterday by Serene,Emily,Zhi lei...oh ya, suddenly,remembered abt 2 days ago sharin with Emily and Zhi lei abt childhood...haha,how bad or how good their childhood is,can't be compare to me...hmmm,attitude can cover up one's past...haiz,yesterday ah yesterday ah,so so so sad...morning thought i late again to meet them,cuz i rush off from service half-way through to go work...haiz,felt quite bad leavin service like tat,spend 1hr30mins to Praise & Worship,watch CHC highlights,Communion,Ochestra by CHC,Offerings msg,Praise song then i leave juz right b4 preachin was abt to start...then reach bugis tat time call the short short one,Serene,then she dun wan pick up,then call Emily one the Serene pick up say she's playin game still on the way...zzz...then when reach 'ICON' we all started doing our work,then we tried pumpin balloon...but start nobody knows how to make the air come out then Emily make a guess and was right but i said wrong...zzz...zzz...zzz...but when we started pumpin,it was quite fun to play with rather than workin with it...then i thought i so pro,nv make any balloon burst...then when the attitude prob de zhen ying come down,all my balloon started to burst,then she there 'F' here 'F' there...say to big,then i pump dun too big she say the size ok...very short while she say dun so samll...toopid lor...then the flirtin terrence so big mouth,say wan burst how many more balloons...hmm,too bad my ears got shit inside cannot hear it,cuz it was Emily who told me...haiz,flirt ass with 2 big goldfish eyes,waxed face,hotdog lips...hmm,guess his mouth is so big dued to hotdog lips,cuz nv talk he will die like tat...haiz,after doing tat for arnd 1 and 1/2 hr,Zhi lei keep complainin wawn stop,but the both us dun wan...cuz we think quite fun and we come for short while so fast go 'chi she'...but eventually after a while we went 'chi she' for dunno how long leh...then go eat laksa,then Zhi lei suddenly say toothache,the weird thing she always forgot she got toothache then keep order liaoz then like very hard to makan...then Emily and me keep quan her beeter go to sch dentist or outside,but outside they anyhow go do do do,then charge you until very exp...then i also diaoz lor,eat half way i talk until with very weird voice,cuz my throat too dry...then when go off,Emily saw guardian shop got hair dye offer,but is like their offer is still exp leh...the i keep ask Emily share hair dye,hehe,cuz no money buy hair dye...then she say at home she got 2dye left when Zhi lei went to toilet...then she say ok to give me,but then she keep say me lor,say i nv ask bring...dot dot dot...then we 'chi she' until dunno how long leh,even go mrt stairs to sit,then keep change to another stairs cuz no air-con...then in the end still go back to original stairs with some additional food of sotong balls...then we help singapore save paper by recyclin our flyers paper...hehe...quite fun...then 6 plus like tat meet Roger,Jenna,Jeremy then pretend dunno them and brought them to 'ICON' to show the boss we got work de...then we quickly went down slack and i sms Jenna to tell them go look arnd first...then we went to BK,at there very,cuz the Zhi lei,Emily and me we sort of diz siao each other,then got 1 times i diz siaoz Emily until gong tio bia...then got 1 koc sound product then she got so pain...haha...that was so fun...haha,then still got so many fun thing going on...nvm,juz fast forwarded to night...we went back slackin arnd 07:45pm...then the Zhou hui keep on say i chou nan ren,dot dot dot,guess some guys make her angry then i kanna bah,cuz i the only guy among all...haiz,sad to say for tat time...then we go buy bread at bread talk then end up i ate arnd 3 bread,actually 4 but 1 is cheese,so i nva ate it...cuz Zhi lei say toothache again,then push everythin to me...then Emily very smart lor,keep on diz siaoz me then go to Serene dere to use her as sheild and say the story the other way round...haiz...then at night in train the worst...kanna insult until wan peng qui...haiz...but nvm bah,when was walkin home,i thought of this,if i let the 3 of them or others make joke out from me by themselves,it's alright...wat for be angry when there's more than 1 ppl who is happy?wat's the point out of it...so,juz take easy lor...since they so happy,i also dun wet their blanket as a spoiler...

2006-11-12T08:17:00.000+08:00

haiz,tiring day again...wah...yesterday rain for a lastin hours of 5...sianz lor...always kanna bully by the 3 of them,haiz,so dao mei,cuz i the onli guy there...then the Emily always threaten me say tml no need ocme work liaoz...zzz...zzz...zzz...then Serene keep on bully me,haiz,so sad...she so small size and short still wan me xchange my umbrella with her samlly umbrella...then sway sway we keep walkin into flooded area...then my shoes totally wet liaoz lor...then my jeans also wet,haiz...but nvm...cuz 2 ppl also kanna...Zhi lei got her jeans wet and Emily got her shoes rot...haha...rainin also not a bad thing...can go chi she for dunno how many hours...haha...pro ppl work less time and get same pay like those who nv chi she...haiz,but notice this thing has been so true,when my days are so fun and good,ppl who are near me sure kanna bad day de...like Serene,Bernard and Jeronmy between Kang hua...haiz...so sad to be happy...haiz,but the 3 of like raining,cloudy,dullish spirit...go 2 times rain 3 times...haiz,sianz...got more to say de,but now gettin late le...need rushin off to meet Jason Ang and go service liaoz...rushing off le...byebye,take guys,bad will soon be over and mine is near...the day your trouble is over,the day will be my day of suffer...

2006-11-11T10:37:00.001+08:00

Haiz,so tiring...todae nearly went back slpin after i woke up,lucky nv...or else later will kanna scold by Serene,cuz late need deducted $50 from pay...haha,yesterday thought i late by 5mins,then Serene,Zhi lei ,Emily all more later than me...So so late...haha...hmm,then yesterday give flyers very xin ku,sun shine then rain then sun shine again then suddenly rain cats and dogs...wah,siao lor,they i say i red red yesterday but the rain so weird lor,rain 2 times in a day...Ri sai yu ling,so ke lian de me,haha...then i take so thick but give out fast without cheatin...then everytime give finish,i go find Zhi lei help her give,cuz she same lane from me...then both of us finish give le go finish le go find wu le le de Emily....haha,she so noob,we 2 finish le she still haven't...then i told them go rest the rest of the flyers i help them give finish...then suddenly Zhi lei stomach pain,then Emily say they both go back to 'ICON' first,then i say ok...but when i reach 'ICON',they still haven't reach...haha,i become super fast liao...but also very ke lian,kanna bully...then 2nd time rain,i kanna the rain until like luo tang ji...so ke lian,but lucky today nv get sick...but the 'ICON' also very wat lor,wan we all take umbrella to shelter ppl from arcoss street to 'ICON',like pei bully lor,underpaid sia...we do flyer become until got umbrella service,lol...haha,then arnd 6 plus...our last trip to give flyers is the best part...we go arrange arrange arrange in front of the boss the bookmark and paper,when we go,we went to Bk to slack and makan...then Zhi lei si bei pro at there lor,cuz she got work there be4...order until won't chi gui de...then when we walkin off,i lump 1 whole stack of flyers into the Bk bin...then wan lump another stack into 7-eleven bin one,but there too many ppl liaoz,so cannot...but we still managed to get the stack into some other bin with some other funny ways...haha...then the last stack i kanna bully again,they go slack i give finish le then find them...then we 3 go to Serene shop to wait for her,then i kanna bully again...haiz...so ke lian...
Since you are standin up,i should not disturb liaoz...jia you bah...haiz,now signin off and going off to be bullied agian...haiz,T.T... Whoever is free,come bugis find me and get my flyer and go to the shop 'ICON',and you can simply redeem a T-Shirt at there with the flyer...

2006-11-10T10:50:00.000+08:00

Haiz,rushin morning...rush to Chen bing's house...then after few mins need rush off jp meet Serene to go bugis to work as flyer....haiz,not bad liaoz...got money earn happy liaoz...btw,Alvin,you say i love mooney...With money,not everything is possible,but without money,nothing is possible...cuz this world is to realistic and practical...

2006-11-08T12:59:00.000+08:00

Haiz,fuckin dulan...Dammit,yesterday actually wan rest at home,1-To rest and have a break for myself,2-dun wanna to see mother fuckin bastard at vivo city to celebrate Bernard's Birthday...Sianz lor,kan ni na bei phua chee bye,those mother fuckers which is was fuckin prevert ass-hadzhiq,2-benjamin...2 most mother fucking ass...dammit na bei,see me come to vivo not happy is it huh,as if i know you 2 so well ah,see the first moment juz come bammin into me as hard as possible rite...?also,say wat treat Bernard watch movie,pui ah!,end up Bernard payin for himself,nv do anythin still wan beat him,wu ji beat me la...alos,benjamin,act wat shit,tell emily you retain,my ass la...want to get close to her say la,a toad wishin for a swan...kan ni na, you all better fuck off with all your rubbish la...especially sayin Bernard zhou gou...if Bernard zhou gou you will be the biggerst in ZHOU GOU...understand...noob...dun bully the weak la...wu ji i give u and hadzhiq bully me la,wu ji first boh...boh ji go home eat ur own balls up la...dammit...
Dun think mother fuckin stupid hor...ni na bei phua chee bye,i was toleratiin nia hor,if you wan to eat my fist,juz come and piss my wrist to hurt teeth...na bei,if not for 3 thing i beat the 2 of u up there liao hor,1-Promise i not to fight,2-Jenna and Bernard stopped me hor,3-give you all face hor...kanni na,treat people with respect can boh,dun think i become christian cannot turn bad or cannot eat u all up hor,my limitation for you 2 bastard is up liao hor...piss my wrist and be ready to eat my fist...wan gang bang me also can one,or else others say i eat samll fry...dun think i dunno how you all treat Alvin,Sin Ren or Bernard hor...wu ji dun bully la,give me a time place date la,i tio with you all la...pui!lump sub kia,wu ji come la,i wait for you hadzhiq and benjamin...not happy with i wrote here,juz do wat you did to alvin,tell everybody dun talk to me dun be my friend,only if u can,i dare you to it bastards...rich ppl like benjamin are wastrels,preverts like hadzhiq-sicko...ni na ma,if i ever lay my hands on the 2 bastard like you 2,i will wanna see blood shed be4 i'm gonna stop....1 tips for you,wanna gang bang me,better go to gym and keep urself fit first,also,grow up bah-aka-NOOBs...try anything funny on me,so be it...BRING IT ON,I'm WAITIN!dun be a hum ji kia hor...Haiz,i'll stop right here for now,till the next time...and hadzhiq you better stop then pin master subject on me and all the rubbish,I'M WARNING YOU NOW,and benjamin,dun anyhow tell Barnard dun be light bulb,Jenna is just a Sister to me,the both of you dun any how spam your shitty nonesense one my reputation,jackass,fuck-off now...last thing,for so long i tolerate,
put it nice,i am tryin to save this friendship,put it bad,i dun wan ppl say i bully weak,wan juz come gang bang me lor...haiz,today wake up so dulan,still need to vexed abt those bastards...then need rush to meet tiong go gym,so tired,slpt at 3 plus,woke 07:30am...then rush gym,rush home,rush chen bing home,now need rush to douby ghuat to play pool sianz ah...booked up everyday,no enough rest...sianz...better watch out bastards,better not provoke me the next time when u see my ass,or else i dunno wat will happen to your face,understand bastards?dun ever try to bully the weak like Alvin Sin Ren Bernard in front of my eyes,you'll nv suceed...if sore loser with my comments and attitude,go join gang to get noob protection for your ownself in order to win me very fast by out-numbering me...pain ass holes which eat the shit i buffer out...

2006-11-06T15:54:00.000+08:00

Haiz,yesterday 3days nv slp,when home knock out on the sofa,woke up on the bed,dunno how i appear on the bed by crawlin or walkin also dunno...Haiz,argue argue aruge,i have no earthy family i have no earthy home,only a hotel with supply and money...I only have a real and spiritual home in church and a spiritual family with W369....haiz,sianz...too much 'MARTELL',too little rest,as a resulted,havin flu like a chicken havin bird flu...eyes are sore...haiz...sianz...i dun wanna get sick...Haiz,unfair family,unfair live,unfair treatment,unfair world...Gotta pay for a praice tat mmay even take your life in something of wat you really wan...

2006-11-05T04:16:00.000+08:00

Haiz,now is 05-11-06 in the morning arnd 04:10am...haiz,reali feel like cryin,thought my miserable life can be numb for awhile lor...after svc juz now i so nice,treat ppl water cuz of their 'abundent' supply for me in the afternoon,felt very gan dong from Jenna's actions...after makan,i went meet the sin jia po short one=Serene,to accompany her go home cuz she sianz,then found tat she very sad...nvm,then Jenna felt so glad to had a Bro-inChrist like me,cuz she also have prob...then i tried helpin but she say she ok le after pullin my sleeve and holdin on my jacket,haiz,but her actions remind me of ...haiz,wish could be her...nvm...go back to wat happen,then my bunch of friends went to my house findin me for a gatherin,then i totally too shocked when they called me and wanted to ask me accompany them cuz they so long no contact me...thought could be a good path to ruin my life,or in a positive manner,gettin into the world but not off the world for the works of JESUS CHRIST...then went to Edward house,found out he oso sort of from CHC,W378,haiz,then 4 ppl play poker includin me...then they took out 'MARTELL',the strongest alcohol among beer and all...then who ever lost muz drink a mouth of it,then i took a sip be4 game start...but the taste too YUCKKIE...but still i like it too,cuz can numb myself off...then until 02:10am like tat my bro and the rest wan to go home first then i torn in my friend's house...but the timin so accurate lor,they down get caught by 4 policemen,then,sway sway be4 they come down,somebody threw a beer glass bottle down and hit a passer-by with a friend walkin outside the HDB...then the police thought was my friends and bro,then kanna screen downstairs,suddenly there was a call to Edward's house,my 'bro'(actually policemen) tell Edward go down,then Edward thought my bro play play nia,reply sayin,'dun lame la,raymond' then the policemen warned Edward he policemen...haiz,then both of us went down,the police screen me too...then ask wheather got drink beer or smoke...all say no and then say Edward and my bro drink nia,the rest all no...then alot things happen at there la,then i jiao ruan lor,cuz hit ppl head leh...thought will kanna charge if any of them did it,cuz we all together surely all die if 1 die...haiz,then stayed so long under the HDB,suddenly the assistant policemen report say caught a person who sould be the highly suspect of tat bottle,then is one indian guy...but face quite familiar,think stare be4 his arnd tat area,cuz when he was caught and comin down from lift,he stare at me when comin out lor...haiz,but one thing,PRAISE AND THANKS THE LORD AND MY GOD,when was detain downstairs,i reali sacre got ma fan lor,then i told myself this,'Lord,pls!help me,i'm in trouble and i'm sorry'...then lucky the real guilty person was caught there,or else they wan to detain us at police station,and also,although we drank 'MARTELL',the police still said they have no sufficient evidence to say the incident was caused by us when the suspect was caught...haiz,my life is spoilin and dun seems movin in a direction so clear,dun even know i'm at the good line or bad line or neutal line,wat am i now...?also,told myself this in service,make a large surface protection for the heart to protect all emtion to go into the real heart inside of me,and told myself to serve the Lord not 1-2 days effort but a real consitant servin,not very confident abt it...also,today is our church 2nd ARISE & BUILD,pledged $380 for a total of 6mths...haiz,dun wanna continue liao,nothin good fallin's onto me liao but a miserable one,i dun wanna suffer,i wanna DIE...can?!?!?!?haiz,haiz,haiz,haiz,dunno why nowdays at night slp bu liao...haiz,dun write liao le...Sianz ah 2days slp bu liao le...

2006-11-04T10:22:00.000+08:00

haiz,sianzation ah...1day1night nv slp liao...now very tired and weary,but also very sad...haiz,wish tat i could be knock down by a vehicle today and slp physically on this earth forever and to go heaven for a enjoyin paradise...i'm a FOOL of all fOOls,DUMMY of all DumBies...haiz,i'm juz a FOOL in everyone eyes,didn't know tat it was all my wisful thinkin...haiz,seems like i really bian ben like wat Serene said...can't do thing with a startin and endin,haiz,stupid stupid stupid,wake urself up bah,do you have a brain for yourself?dumb ass...haiz,later still gotta go cell group and service,hope i won't fall a slp...this world will juz never seems bright for me,is there really a space and purpose for me on this earth or there's juz death layin ahead of me or there's juz hurtz comin in i wanna be emotionally dead,i dun wanna shed a single tear,i dun wanna be alive...haiz 2emptiness in juz one day,cuz yesterday noon,Julia was sent off at the airport,at night sat on the bed thinkin and cryin of somethin after receving sms and chattin on the phone from 2 ppl...haiz,regerted 2 things tat i nv done,missed 2 things that was done onto me,wanted 2 things i never had,hated 2 thing tat i've done...haiz,guess i can't express much juz on this blog,words can be touchin but can't be expressive,but wat to do?
disappointment,
rejection,
loneliness,
abandon,
hurt,
tolerance,
endurance,
bitterness,
sufferings,
limitations had offered to the highest level,but all this waves and tsunamis kept comin in to force its limitation to be vent out soon on anybody who piss my ass off,if not the one who will be down will be me...i only wan to go heaven and not be off a good person with good limitation,if anyone of you wish to hurt me piss me kill me or do anything onto me,juz come,but pls,make sure one thing,take it as a request,make sure wat you do will cause me to DIE in a result...thank you,or you'll regret...nth much to say le,hope tat later people there with no brains dun piss me off with their brainless words,either they suffer or i go home...that's all...

2006-11-03T09:27:00.000+08:00

Haiz,such a bright and cheerful morning for normal ppl...But for me is,VEXED,VEXED,VEXED,VEXED...Haiz,feel bad right in the morning when i woke up...Haiz,yesterday night watchin tv,then my bro suddenly come back and then watch 'shaman king'...Watch until yi ban the tv like siao siao like tat,cuz of the tv cable chao da...Then my Bro like very worried abt it and go and look,then i say is wire chao da,then my mom like very worried lor...Totally 'F' her off lor,cuz when i told her long ago,she give me tat dai dai look and never even give a 'F'ing damn abt it lor...Judging from this is totally biased lor,wat i said is bullshit,no one hear,when my Bro come back,talk the same shit as i spoke,my mom treat it like treasure...Wat the 'F' is this?VEXED VEXED VEXED VEXED...Then now straight in the morning i pung sei tiong,cuz in frist i say go gym with him,then yesterday night very dulan then train dumbbell from 12:00am -01:00am(a little bit qi siao to do this at tat hour,samll kids pls dun try this at home,it will cuz disturbance to your family,then very tired and fan,cuz a lot probs happen...Relationship probs,Finance probs,Relative probs,Friends prob,then now in the mornin need go SMU play bball,totally no mood lor...VEXED VEXED VEXED VEXED...Then in the evening,1 cg member,Julia,is leaving for India from a school event(quite fortunate,sch only choose 5 student among all),then need send her off at airport this evenin,4pm plus,at terminal 2...Haiz,no time to let me take a breath,but nvm,in the morning let me fan whole is a good thing,like tat would anything how think bah,like last night is 1 good example liao...Think for dunno arnd 3hrs before i slept at 02:30am...My life quite weird leh,sch day 7hrs slp,now holiday i can't get my slp...Haiz,later gotta have a lot of things to handle,and "muz handle than like glass,it's fraglie,treat it with care"...Haiz,how to really communicate with relative leh?Relatives have prob i only can listen and worried but i can't help...Haiz,is it better to watch them struggle in their prob or i should try crackin the nut in my brain?...Hope tat i could slp in a time when there's peace,comfortability,relaxation and totally rest in that peace without wakin up with thing to handle in an early age...Come to think of a positive manner,this shows that i responsible and ppl find me comfortable to help...Haiz,but compare to the negative one,i still need to find loads of positive answer to prove to myself tat i muz think positively...Sianz,10:30am meet at City Hall,then i now still in popiah hse,then he haven't bath haven't do anything,so smelly...Haiz,surely late for sure de lor...Haiz,stop here le bah,VEXED VEXED VEXED VEXED...At least when i go off,still have something tat really cheered me up after chatting with Cindy...Haiz,but still there's more waitin for me to handle...Gonna stay dude,but I'm too weak...Haiz,VEXED VEXED VEXED VEXED...Wah,chat with her until very late liao,now muz stop blog first liao...ByeBye!!!Take cares friends...YIPPEEEEE,very happi be4 going out...

2006-11-02T16:19:00.000+08:00

Haiz,todae so sianz leh,can't my life move to a point tat everyday is like a movie which is so excitin,touchin,loveing,caring,so full of missions everyday,full of ideas daily...09:30am like tat Tiong sms me to chat with him den i not enough slp cuz I slpet arnd 04:30am...But still,to be a good person,i called him and had a chat with him on the phone...Chat like 30-60mins like tat jiu kup le then i sms Popiah to see wheather he at home or not,but he in sch,damn sianz lor...Then got a msg from Jason Ang abt Terry,cuz Jason said he got a msg from Terry and sayin he is feelin to backslide...So I tried being a good Bro last night to even went down to JP arnd 9pm-11pm plus to chat with him but Jason call off this idea,as he find tat Terry might not wanna talk to him abt his prob for time being and this would cuz my transport home to be unavailable as the last bus would probably leave arnd 12:00am,so,didn't met up eventually...So this morning was plannin how to meet up with Terry and how to help join his fight in this spiritual welfare as ARISE & BUILD is coming up this sat...But Terry didn't wan to pick up calls or reply msg,so i msg him a while later to see wheather he was willin to let us help him,so,finally he relpied sayin,'other day',and tat was it...So i told him to take care and let me know his prob when he is ready...Haiz,then another person called and kup within a second...That person was Serene Lim and asked me to chat with her cuz she in MRT very sianz(another one find me to accompany),then chat chat chat then she thought i walk together with Kai ling,haha,so lame lor...Then I tried gettin lobang from her but mainly all for girls one,haiz,then talk talk talk until her mother,say her mother very lame very childish but i found her quite fortunate to have a mother being so compassionate and open to her even had a weekly of $50 to spend-NOT INCLUDED OF TRANSPORT EATIN OR ANTHING--'JUX FOR SPENDIN LEH,the food all this can claim extra,so good lor,unlike me,EVEN have $50 a week sure include everything tat i muz spend outside de lor...But she quite sensible too,cuz now she workin then haven't took money from her mum for a while le,so,quite independent bah...Then nth to do go meet up with Popiah at BBT shop to go to his house when he was dismiss...Haiz,then found this thing very weird,when there's problem,it comes together at once,when there a need for a help,it comes together too-juz like today,early in the mornin my brain still restin I still slpin then get msg and calls...Haiz,then going to enous in abt 30mins time cuz going to Gabriel's house for prayer meetin with those who are available due to Arise & Build,ppl will start to have probs and difficulties to come to CHURCH...PS:My mind wanted Pride,My heart wanted YOU,in the process of this,I lost my way and lost the basic bond that should had between YOU,all i can do now is,wait...Friends,get this straight,Pride gets you no where and gets you to no success in life in anything you wanna do...And carin for people arnd you can help maintain friendship,gaining friendship,there's no harm to care for your friend,so,be nice to each other,dun care of me ofwat others arnd you say. or judge..Speakin of this reminded Bernard's case,i've being consolling him can counselling for a period of time cuz he retain as a matter of fact,but then this bunch of jerks or assholes said things like i'm gay,blah blah blah,so wat,i didn't give a damn to nonesense and continue to care for him and with this,our bond of brotherhood is strong among Terry Him and Me...But the sad thing for him is tat his B'dae is near and he wants to be a nice guy to treat everybody he knows,but he had nv consider who have being true as a friend to him and who have being like a mother pi pi ba pi pu friend towards him...Really hope he knows who to treat and who not treat cuz he dun really have that much of wat can really afford and it would be unfair for those who treat him with care...Or he juz treat jerks with garbage trash and spend time with people who is true to him at sentosa to celebrate his's B'dae...this can help cut down all the cost for buyin food for garbage jerks for him,as true friends would rather spend time and give present to him rather than demandin a nice and expensive meal...Questions,Wat you gain after a nice meal beside havin your stomach filled?Did really gain true satisfaction from friendship meal or rather tat it juz your stomach fill?Is this wat true friend really mean?Friends,dun let greed and desires take over your mind and heart,you'll start to take only the advanstage from a person rather then being a friend...Hmm,after being such a naggin person,gues i'm stoppin here...Take care and really be nice to other...Weird weird de me stop here liaoz...

2006-10-31T12:19:00.000+08:00

[怪怪的人生][Guai Guai(Weird) De Ren Sheng].[怪怪的脾气][Guai Guai De Pi Qi].[怪怪的太度][Guai Guai De Tai Du].[怪怪的心声][Guai Guai De Xin Sheng].[怪怪的品味][Guai Guai De Ping Wei].[怪怪的人各][Guai Guai De Ren Ge].
Haiz,yesterday evening went to watch the movie-'Sinking of Japan',the graphics and sound effects are so real and nice...But was force to go for that movie,actually wanted to go home after having a chat with Bernard and Terry at Bernard's house...Mainly becuz of 2 reason,1-Watch GoonG,2-Saving money for CHC event(Arise and Build)...But then,this 2 nice Bro-in-Christ so good,even say treat movie,dinner,then like so nice lor...But felt very awkard too...When watch finish that movie,it gave me this conclusions,1-To make this type of movie,you muz first have a solution to solve the prob you wanna produce...2-To make a movie,you take a story from a real life,rather,you muz take a story of a dream,ambition,history wars,disaster;etc...Also,this movie mainly have no light...their day is always filled with ashes in the air,their lives is so grey,until when 'Yuki' and 'Onderane'-(something spell like tat) are willing to sacrifice their own life for the sake of makin a miracle out for Japan not to sink...And this person 'Onderane',was totally too brave,before going to make tat miracle to happen,he knew that the submarine could not within the pressure in the sea and he would die for sure,but for this word-'LOVE',he said this sentence,I've nothing so important to do,until now,I wan to sacrifice my life for this mission to protect your life as the girl life was known as a firefighter...Wat a touching sight...Nvm,but in the last part,when Japan was save from being sinkin into the deep ocean,a gleam of light then shine down from heaven,as if heaven was open to save them...So wow...Hmm,then at night,Cheese chat with me on the phone for around 2hours but actually nv lor,keep on pester each other to say a topic first,more like time,haha...After some time when the both of us started talkin abt Cindy,found out something new and much more complex...This line from Cheese gave me a deep impression,'Cindy na mem mei bao wo,Ni you na mem zi bei'...Hmm...nvm,hope everybody is enjoying the every single day,spendin a meaning full life,a deep touchin one life,a strong bond of each and other...Juz hope for this one thing,Cindy and me could restored the friendship bond like we ever had before...Stoppin here liaoz...Remember to spend every sec every hour every day meaningful....

原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己

2006-10-30T14:20:00.000+08:00

Hi guys,feel a little bit good to blog again...Haiz,feelin quite down few days back...Now in Barnard's house,came from gym after trainin with Jason Tiong...Haiz,Nobodies knows about how i really feel,not even my cell group members...All only know how to see me smile,talk,concern abt others but wat abt my ownself...Haiz,but nvm,cannot blame them,cuz i also nv really let anybody know,maybe becuz i give people a lot of pressure...Talka bout life,Body-Build myself up,Study-Try myself up,Relationship-Wait myself up,Family-Damn the fish up,Spiritual Life-Pray myself up,Friends-Communicate myself up...Haiz,thought of a very simple 'dao li' on relationship which is known for a very long time,and that is,'When you love a person,you would rather want to see that person happy than sad",haiz,such a simple 'dao li' also nv thought of it...Haiz,原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你,原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己-Yuan lai zhui gu dan shi wo hai shi na mem xiang ni,Yuan lai zhui bei ai de shi wo bu neng maian dui zi ji,,...Now i know why JJ sang this song-原来-Yuan Lai...Hmm,dun feel like bloggin liao...

2006-10-22T17:03:00.000+08:00

GooD day friends,haiz,todae,slept arnd 05:30am,then set alarm at 08:30am but woke up at 9am and went back slpin...Then woke up at 10am and lied on bed until 10:30am,then tried invitin popiah to come for todae Cell group meetin,but he say he need go to Grandma's house...Haiz,got dissapointed again,Tiong,Cindy,Hui and Popiah nv come in the end for yesterday SERVICE...Haiz,not even a single 1...Nvm,but todae Cell group quite good as tears flow down my eyes when we sang 'SANCTUARY' because i was havin so thought in my mind after readin some other peoples blog...Haiz,should be going ViVo City later,so,endin here...Still,it's your decision to be like friends...Wat i can say is take care and i'll respect your choice...Stay strong and Happy...

Godly Saturday

2006-10-21T11:57:00.000+08:00

GooD Morning to you and GooD Afternoon to PIGS and GooD nitez to owl,Wo0o0o~W0o0tz,Wa~Haha,after so much stormy and rainy day,sunhine and cloudless day,finally,it reach SATURDAY,truely it is a day for me to get more time with God and PRAISE and WORSHIP HIM longer,get into his realm longer and better.../\ . /\...YiPeeZ~Wo0o0o~Wo0oTz,Yeah~Yea~Yeah...Haiz,but today a little tired...Why leh?Becuz Xin-Da-Di(Cindy) lor,yesterday told her wan conference at night,she say see first...Then so high and happy,then sha sha de wait nearly whole night,wait until 02:30am then find nth else to keep me awake,i went slping like a pig...T.T...Haha,but nvm,although she never call but i think is worthwhile can le...Now currently in Popiah(Chen Bing)'s house.waiting for him to deicide weather he can go for SERVICE or not...Also,gettin somethings settle first,so tat i can go meet Bernard and have a chat with him...But with current situation here,think is hard de lor,cuz the po po ma ma de Popiah lor,need consider the haze for a moment,but his a moment quite long leh...Haha.../\ . /\...Then tried inviting Cindy and ShiHui leh,but they got choir and then still kanna scold by Hui...Cuz when she wan go Service,she will tell me on her own de...On the other hand,my Cg leader and members keep urging me to invite them and said they got potential...So pressurized de lor,never even spare a thought for me...One side say this,One side wan tat,how I give a jiao dai to both side!?Pi pi ba pi pu lor...Nvm,dunno why still feel so happy despite being perssurized by people arnd me...Maybe is God's love showerin on me bah,also,if i dun do this work and keep swearin and complain,God will juz find another person to complete my work,so,why not i be a obedient servant and does HIS works.../\ . /\...Also,for my own side,i tryin to invite Jason Tiong back,but sms him le no reply leh...If today i can get Cindy,Shihui,Chen Bing,Jason Tiong down for Service which is also a Friendship connection weekend,I surely HAPPY until siao de lor...But I'm still hoping for the best until the last min...

2006-10-20T16:04:00.000+08:00

HI Brothers and Sisters!!!Yoyoz YOz YoZ,GOOD DAY GOOD DAY GOOD DAY...I'm VERi BERi high today...So,happy for Cindy,after she had been so worried for her result for days,finally hear good news from her...So relief and HAPPY for her,!!!HALLELUJAH!!!---HALLELUJAH---HALLELUJAH!!!After been so depressed and worried for 3 days due to hair and Cindy's result,finally today i so high until Cindy and Chen bing say i siao ding dong.../\ o /\...So,good to be back to myself again...Also,finally todae Bernard sounds so fine and normal to me,called me for some school thing...and chatted so cheerfully with me,hope he is truely fine and wish people arnd him shower more concern on him everyday...Rather than sheddin crocodile tears when he is really depress and cryin non-stop,and insult him when he is normal or happy...WAT is THIS???Can u spare a thought for him!?Can you put yourself in his shoes!?Are you still a HUMAN being!?Do you have a SOUL and CONSCIENCE!?When was the last time you seen him so HAPPY!?When was the last time he was being Cheer up when he is sad!?When was the last time he was PRIASE for doing something sweet!?...Hmmm,dun wet my own blanket further,todae is really quite a good day for me to stay high and HAPPY...HALLELUJAH!!!It's say in the BIBLE,Psalms 118:24,"Today is the day that the LORD has made,we will REJOICE and be GLAD in it."All glory to HIM forever and ever,AMEN!!!Also,postin of this few photos of wat we 've taken in September holiday for study,reminded me of those day which we were all so happy,cheerful,free,totally no worries and so carefree,release stress by being like a kid,but fun.../\ o /\...Hope we were freeze in those times to stay together longer...Time flies,and so does they,thinkin how they look when they were havin exams,seeing them so stressed up and havin dull expressions,getting so worked up easily over samll matters,can't take a breath in so easily,watchin very close to every step they take,takin simple thing so seriously...Haiz,back to where i spend my time moment ago,chattin with Cindy really cheered me up,then played some msn games with her and she gong gong de let me won her over...Haha,now she need to type her blog for the day and meanwhile I'll juz try to extent wat i had wrote for todae's special...But still,she's takin a little long leh...nvm,it's alright for me to wait.../\ o /\...Right now,I'm stoppin here going to check on her blog,so take care of yourself guys and had a nice weekend...Hehe,back again,I've done something bad...I disturb until her and cause her to wrote her blog on mine,and now she's gonna retype again and i've gonna wait again...So bad of me and so sad for me to wait again...But still,sorry Cindy.../T o T\...Finally she's done...Haiz,now Chen Bing's mom is back,i'm leavin soon after i read Cindy's blog...

2006-10-20T14:53:00.000+08:00

CINDY(left)cuter than ShiHui(Right)
The FUTURE PHOTOGRAHER is ME Reunited
4 GoldFish,Broo Broool...
Chen Bing and Me
-Horse(Shihui) .vs. Sheep(Me)

Wat the TooT day-!-!-!

2006-10-18T13:59:00.000+08:00

Haiz,BAD DAY-BAD-DAY-BAD DAY,TooT tOOt day!!!Go school in the morning so calm and peaceful,but nearly went beyond my destination stop,cuz I fell aslp on the bus...Den when the bus was nearly drivin off,i woke up and press the bell and slowly walk out of the bus...Lucky never 'ma-lu'...When reach class,listen song,things still worked out so fine and good...Till the time for morning assembly,tat's was the time for HIDE-AND-SEEK,My friend and I will be the one to HIDE & the counsellor will be the SEEKER...Why must this be happen?Cuz of the word called 'HAIR'!!!Holiday reachin in 1-2weeks still wan to act like a TOP school to call for mobile barber and give a hair cut which is all slope like NERD!!!But,but,but,but,Alex & Me went hidin in canteen toilet becuz after assembly we saw Mr Su-pi-Ra-teh was conductin a hair check at 3N2...After it was over,Alex and me went back to class,but,during the journey back to class we saw our DM takin a cane towards our class area...So,we can't go back and we needed to dodge becuz he was juz only 1metre away...So scary...But then,in the long run,we eventually got back to class and was juz in time to check our marks for End-Year-Examination papers...Haiz,then still,the sad thing is,the DM became smart after being tricked for 2times while checkin hair,he took another round of spot check when we were all so anxious and worried for our marks...Afterall,we still got caught and was sent outside the D&T block for haircut...Then 3N2 pai kia decided to confront the DM,cuz they find it unacceptable...So,as a person like me,I followed them...Haiz,being a so 'focus point' person,the DM still wan us to cut and wanted ask to hear him bullshit and sing praise for hiimself...Blah,blah,blah,La-la-la...When it was my turn to cut hair,my anger of fire was already warming up,then when he finish,that barber cut until like shit like tat...i got so pissed of and went back to class...But then,on my way,I was yell by DM for stuckin out my shirt,but still,i ignored it...When i got back into class,i found this friend/brother,Bernard,he was cryin dued to his results...As he did very badly tat he was gonna retained,he cried and cried and cried until our math cher who was also from City Harvest Church came...Then she tried comfortin him and brought him dunno to where...I felt sad for him and wanted to console him,but at tat moment,i was really very angry and so,i can't forced myself to have tat good and understandin attitude to console him...Seems like a BAD DAY for me and him,but his was a more serious one...Then when the bell for reccess rung,i conldn't find anyone to pontent with me,i climb out my school gate alone and went back home...When reach home,can't told my mom wat happen and can't find anyone to share with as I know my mom would surely defend for the teacher side and make wild guess of wat i told her and I dun really feel so easy to share my probs out with friends or with my cell group friends...So,I decided to go out rather than being at home hearin my mom talk this talk tat more like crap...And the target i found was Popiah,the good thing is he was sick and surely he's at home(but a bit bad,cuz he's sick then still wan go)...the bad thing is,got parent at home,cuz i dun really like to go ppl house which has parent at home(cuz dun really feel comfortable with parent at home,as i need to really mind my attitude and word,or else they think i pai kia)...Finally,1 thing to report,tml not going to school until (28/10/06)the day for collection of report book,yay yay yay...Lastly,something better for me to say,my RESULTS!!!I AM PROMOTED TO SEC4(NA)WOOTz!!!>>>English Paper2 43.5/80 Paper1 27/60,Chinese Paper2 30/60 Paper1 30/70,Math Paper2 13.5/40 Paper1 25.5/60,Social Studies(combined humanities) 29/50(i study for this very hard hor),Geography(combined humanities) 11/50(put in 1000times effort but in the end still fail the same as ever),Biology(combined science) 19.5/30 McQ marks:(unknown),Chemistry(combined science) 16/30 (first time really pass without cheatin but with God and my STRENGTH,cuz the cher teachings like kanna sai,Hallelujah)McQ:(unknown),POA Paper2 39/60 Paper1 26.5/40...That's all folks,STAY BRIGHT & CHEERFUL...Be glad and content for wat you have and be brave and strong for a stormy bad day which will seems crashin down on you.../\./\...

SpeciaL thanks to CINDY

2006-10-16T21:43:00.000+08:00

THANK-YOU CINDY FOR HELPING ME MAKE ALL THIS THINGS SO NICE,AND HEARIN MY HEART OUT AND CRY TOGETHER(IF I NOT WRONG)/\./\...AH-LI-KA-TO...THANK-YOU

Nobody Knows me

2006-10-16T20:05:00.000+08:00

[怪怪的人生].[怪怪的脾气].[怪怪的太度].[怪怪的心声].[怪怪的品味].[怪怪的人各].
Greetings my friends,so long nv post due to the cancellation of the internet...My Greeting:'Hao Jiu Bu Jian,Ni Hai Hao Mah?Bie Lai Wu Yang"...Haiz,2 Day ago,13-Oct,tat day was meant to be a good tat the Lord has made...Hui was plannin a BiG surprise for her Kailing B'Dae(her cousin),which turn out very well and she even cried when she saw har Birthday was brought to her in a kinda fun surpise as we celebarted it be4 her actual B'dae,becuz we wanted to torn and countdown with her for her Birthday...Be4 we were in her house decoratin,we went in and out of shops,and dicussin here & ther to do wat nxt...in the end,we brought samll and big bags of stuff,spend all our money on present and groceries and rush for a bus...When reach,somebodi suggested to play UNO,meanwhile hui & mun yee took out the stuff we brought and start doing their DIY decoration...Until when somebody Goldfish went out,Hui got so angry and yell at the 4 of us,sayin we went over board as we didn't helped and my music including my voice was too loud...after she scold finish,Mun Yee also stood on her side and ssaid,'ni men bu hui jue de ni mem guo fen le yi dian dian mah?'...then Hui cried and Mun Yee accompanied her to went downstairs to cool down...When thay got back,i was totally a invisable person to them,talked to them no reply no reaction only attitude being shown...then until when they discovered tat kaiLing was reachin home earlier than the time expected...so,immediatly they starting rushin to complate evrything and slowly started talking to me...Arnd 09:15pm,KaiLing called back home to ask her maid to go down and wait for her,then everybody started gettin into their position and Hui camp at the window to see downstairs and the lift side,meanwhile i camp behind the door waitin for their arrival,when she arrived i rushed to my position...As soon as she walked in,we shouted,"KAILING,HAPPY B'DAE!'then she went cryin as she was touched...11pm Chen Bing had to go home due to parent objection to stay out late,soon,Mun Yee needed to get home due to the time restriction set by her parent,seeing them leave,Cindy wanted to leave although she was granted to be able to stayed out late...Becuz she was sensible,she wanted to go home too as she felt tat she was gettin more and more 'De Chun Jin Chi'...So,ah seng(Cheese Cake) and me sent Cindy and Mun Yee home...And we rushed back towards KaiLing's hse as her countdown was near,despite our best efforts,sad to say tat we were late and unable to join into her countdown...So the next dat continues,15-Oct,arnd 1plus,Hui's nose started bleeding as she was weak physically and went slping,same goes to Kailing but her nose didn't bleed...Not long after,Cheese Cake(Chee Seng) went slpin too as i was playin gunbound verselfishly,but i was the only who lasted out till morning...Then not long after i woke up from a 30min nap anrd 07:30am,i had to rush for SERVICE and i've tried invitin Cindy,Hui,Popiah(Chen Bing) and Chees-si-dan-gao,but ended up havin rejected by the 2 ladies again...but still glad tat the 2 gentlemen came...and Popiah(Chen Bing) even went down for altar call...after SERVICE,Eric and me need to rush down for W369 cell-group meetin(/\./\),be4 we got down Eric helped me a second time by invitin to our cell-group as he was the one who helped me to ask Popiah whether he wanted to recevie salvation(2 times of helpin me ask was a total success)...but can't totaly blame me,as i lost compleletly more than a day plus another 6hrs in...but Praise the Lord that i didn't went nappin in SERVICE and i was able to survive my day...Then stayed at one of the members hse for a movie call 'Prince of Eygpt'(Abt Moses)...In the Nite,when i reach home arnd 7plus wacthin tv,i fell aslp very fast due to the lack of slp...but woke up arnd 10plus and saw a msg for conferene with Cindy(which make me so charge up) and Cheese...then talk until 12plus or 1 plus,Cheese was KNOCK OUT and went slpin and i was so GLaD to have the time to chat with Cindy alone...Then we chat for very long,and it's for the first tat somebody knows so much from me,but deep down,it's only a samll part off my miserable life...Then Cindy pour out something from her heart to me which I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS ABT IT /\./\...Until 2plus,her mum woke up and said she will turn bad if she continue talkin with me...haiz,so said to hear that,but is alright as i know i am a society failure...but still,NEVER JuDGE a BooK bY its COVER!!!...then OFFICIALLY for todae,16-Oct,finally went to ICA buildin for IC application ,as for the last time,i actually wanted to do IC on 10-Oct...But thanks to myself for being a patient person,my friends rather play games and take no respect for this friendship for 40mins,i went off to meet Hui and Mun Yee after being so patient,so,in the end,i didn't do my IC that day...Also,Cindy actually wanted to join us,due to her mei mei no schooling,then make Dyy-Dyy cannot join us,so SAD>.<...haiz,now arnd 9plus me and Chen Bing tua them by makin some weird calls...now signing off,byebye...NiteZ NiteZ...last wishes,hope tat i won't be disappointed by others and hope i can really let more of my heart out to tat the TRUELY someone,Cindy...
z T.Tz z O.o z z ?.? z NOBODY KNOWS ME z T.Tz z O.o z z ?.? z

2006-09-01T16:57:00.000+08:00

sleeping.ZzZzZZz
arghh!!c moi face.tink lose to her liaos.hahas
best of frendz..woots! X]
cheers!
keming graduaters! blehhs =]

2006-03-03T06:50:00.000+08:00

ToDae too Lazy go SchooL,sianzation,but no need see teachers ATTITUDEz,waste of my time seeing them... z +.- z ...W0RkinG iN Burger KinGz soon...Haiz,earning money soon,but need to help pay BILLS,could i afford anything for my OWN NEEDS?!?!
Btw cindy,thx for helping me make the blog...z ^.^ z...thx~

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x))

2006-02-19T14:20:00.000+08:00

blehzz mii willie wonka open a choc factorii muz com visit orhz.. x))
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As a disturbance by CinDy who is PLAYING A FOOL z ^.^z
no llz helpin promote hiis factorii onli heEx =]